"The difference between doing what you want and doing something casually is that you urge yourself to do it in the most perfect way." Nerva replied. "I am doing something I want to do, master, so it works well for me."

--Nerva to Deucalion; from The Red Haired Terror; by Nerva al'Thor


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oh yeah,.. special thanks to Ms. Mae Ann,.. :) thank you sa help mo dito sa bago kong blog,.ahihi
aww kahit ang gulo pa,.. at least nababasa ung entries,. i mean nababasa ko,.. hihihi


back to my regular rantings,...

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I died a long time ago,..

I am now a "Ghoul" waiting for the last "HEAL!" coming from You,..

whether you're from the Acolyte class, A Crusader/Paladin, a character who uses a "Healing Clip" or a user of the Light Epsilon,..

a single "HEAL!" will do my friend,...




Please Help me Rest in Peace,...




I'm damn serious,..


Ever since I studied in college,.. my life turned upside down,...
People are expecting me to cope fast,..
People demands me of great things out of their frustrations,..
People lauged at me when I didn't understand,..


yeah,.. weird,... It was me who is "weird" after all,..


What do I want?



I want to Rest,..


but the world insists me not to waste time,..


as if i'm doing something productive?! huh?

I failed not only myself & my parents but also theLord,.. I can't bear that,.. Please let me rest,.. If you love yourself that much please don't get close to me,.. You'll just be part of my discombobulating & melancholic mind,...

~ gah where did I get those words? o_O

I want myself back,..

I don't want you,...

I'm striving to get back,.. & you're not helping me,..


Please LEAVE me ALONE,.....




I'm pleading for a chance,...

I hope it isn't too late,...

Please,....



I was not late this morning in our PE class,..


The damages were done,.. I have no choice but to face all the consequences,...



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Doing something you Love,... is different from doing something casually,...


Then I must learn to Love it,...

I have to,...


I won't promise to study my lessons,..
I won't promise to sleep early,..
I won't promise to be early in school,..
I won't promise to use time productively,..
I won't promise to spend my money wisely,..
I won't promise to attend the holy mass on Sundays,..
I won't promise to be nice and sweet,..
I won't promise to stop reading fan fictions,..
I won't promise to lessen my time in front of the monitor
I won't promise to quit Ragnarok Online,..
I won't promise to lessen my food intake,..
I won't promise to understand the reality,..
I won't promise to be good,...





Oh God,.....
Please Heal me,.....


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sorry for all the rantings what-so-ever,.. i need those words eh,..ahaha,.. please do not comprehend too deep,.. mababaw lang talaga yan,.. wag nang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano,.. ;) just reflect on the quote above,.. inspirational yan,.. lalo na yung buong kwento,..

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