Life (that) is plastic, is it fantastic?

Looks can be deceiving, or should I say, first impressions don't last. That is the proper quotation most of my friends realize when they got to really know me. A pale girl with a slightly thick glasses, often seen hanging out in the library all alone, reading a thick "Accounting" Book. A misjudged "chinita," well in fact I don't have Chinese blood in my veins. Should I wish to have one? Unfortunately, one of the guidelines my mom wants me to follow in choosing my future husband is that, he shouldn't be Chinese. Don't you think my mom is quite odd since the Chinese are often the richest people in our country?

At first glance nobody would think that I play online games, PC games, LAN games or whatever you call games like, Ragnarok Online, Gunbound, DOTA, etc. If I say play, I mean I am addicted to games. I even found myself writing countless plans of status builds and skill trees of my prospective characters in Ragnarok. If I am caught staring blankly into space in class, I am probably thinking of that high wizard who tried to kill or who killed my beloved high swordsman, that led to a screaming level down. I'm just formulating my strategies or saying self-consoling statements such as, "He is just weak because he could only kill a low level," and, "I would surely have my revengewhen I became a Lord Knight." As an addict game, I am guilty of spending hours or even days in front of the computer screen. I would eat a fast light breakfast and a pretentious dinner. It reminds me of most of the girls, who are always on a strict diet. You'll often hear them saying: "Don't eat the skin of that chicken," "Don't eat beyond 6 P.M," and "Don't eat rice." God there are many children who are starving and yet they don't want to eat? Oh, I think I am sidetracking.

The culprit I think are the media images and those ultra-skinny models that may be the superstars in our town. Another image that is rooted in every girl's childhood is Barbie. Don't you know that if Barbie were life size, she would stand 5'9" and weigh 110 lbs. (Which is only 76% of what is considered a healthy weight for her height). Her measurements would be 39-18-33, and she would not menstruate due to inadequate levels of fat on her body. Definitely not the kind of woman we real females should strive to be right? Dieting is not wrong if done for health's sake. It is wrong if having a model's body becomes the gauge of beauty and measurement of self-worth, thus leading to eating disorders.

Who doesn't want to be beautiful? It's true that the way we think about and attend to our personal appearance is really a mirror of our hearts. The tricky part is unveiling the true beauty. True beauty flows from the heart and always radiates toward others. Some simple things to do that are to strive to make a difference in people's lives, and then increase your attitude antennae by thanking anyone and everyone. Treat even the things people are expected to do as great gifts. Remind yourself that nothing is truly yours, and finally, when you encounter an ill-fated person, always be kind and sincere. Tell yourself, "that could have been me."

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Written: 2nd term 2007 (I think)
Subject: Public Speaking 2

This was supposed to be my manuscript for my extemporaneous speech. I didn't have the time to proof-read (since I did this the night before my speech) and I think I didn't say all that I wrote. I had too much adlib especially towards the end. I even mentioned the quote, "It is through the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eyes." by Antoine de Exupery. I wonder how and why.

I don't really like to remember this subject... but then this is worth remembering. I was an irregular student and yet I excelled. Our professor sees to it that he lists in the white board all the names of the students who got the highest grades in the recent test. And my name was always written of course. It's not something to be so proud of actually since the tests are way too easy...just a little tricky. Imagine, what would a written exam in Public Speaking be?

My midterm grade was almost perfect though I didn't get the highest mark. I didn't get it due to absences. I maintained my outstanding performance throughout the finals. Surprisingly, I just got a passing grade.