"Because I made a promise," Shin-Ju said.
"I promise her that I'd be with her...
and help her take the consequences of making her own choices.
Now more than ever, I have to be with her.
I can't break that promise now. I won't.
Promises should be kept no matter what the cost."
-Shin-Ju to Lara (2nd test) -from: One Who Waits by : Mikey
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The articles posted here may be reflective of the author’s thoughts, but it is not a guarantee that those thoughts are still true at this present time.
Just think of yourself in front of the mirror, you see your reflection on a particular time, but that reflection changes as time pass.
Though not all, but it would definitely change. Thoughts change as well, though some remain unchanged.
30.1.11
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum
Picture-perfect memories scattered all around the floor Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind? For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind? For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
Oh whoa
Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now I just need you now
Oh baby I need you now
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I've been listening to this song for a few weeks already... and at an unexpected moment, it was played at MTV while I'm with you. Next time I'll just be smiling at these memories. 01.28.2011.
Indeed Picture-perfect Memories...
The Story of the Bird by Paulo Coelho
I don't know the title of this story but this is taken from Paulo Coelho's book, 'Eleven Minutes' on pages 213-215. This is unexpectedly a really great book. I think every guy who is brave enough to acknowledge himself should read this book. Even a guy who loves or likes, or plans to love or like a girl should read this. [Only if they had the guts]
Once upon a time, there was a bird. He was adorned with perfect wings and with glossy, colorful feathers. He was a creature made to fly about freely in the sky, bringing joy to everyone who saw him.
One day, a woman saw this bird and fell in love with him. She watched his flight, her mouth wide in amazement, her heart pounding, her eyes shining with excitement. She invited the bird to fly with her, and the two traveled across the sky in perfect harmony. She admired and venerated and celebrated that bird.
But then she thought: He might want to visit far-off mountains! And she was afraid that she would never feel the same way about the other bird. And she felt envy, envy for the bird's ability to fly.
And she felt alone.
And her thought: "I'm going top set a trap. The next time the bird appears, he will never leave again."
The bird, who was also in love, returned the following day, fell into the trap and was put in a cage.
She looked at the bird every day. There he was, the object of her passion, and she showed him to her friends, who said: "Now you have everything you could possibly want."
However, a strange transformation began to take place; now that she had the bird and no longer needed to woo him, she began to lose interest.
The bird, unable to fly and express the true meaning of his life, began to waste away and his feathers began to lose their gloss; he grew ugly; and the woman no longer paid any attention, except by feeding him and cleaning out his cage.
One day, the bird died. The woman felt terribly sad and spent all her time thinking about him. But she did not remember the cage, she thought only of the day when she had seen him for the first time, flying contently amongst the clouds.
If she had looked more deeply into herself, she would have realized that what had trilled her about the bird was his freedom, the energy of his wings in motion, not his physical body.
Without the bird, her life too lost all meaning, and Death came knocking at her door. "Why have you come?" she asked Death. "So that you can fly once more with him across the sky," Death replied.
"If you had allowed him to come and go, you would have loved and admired him even more; alas, you now need me in order to find him again."
29.1.11
Myopic View of Lights
Myopic View -This is the nearest image that I could find in the net.. but definitely not the perfect. Maybe I could recreate the image sooner or later... I just don't know when.
Credits to Mr. Village9991 from flickr.
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Entry written last Jan 26, 2010 at my DN.
Two days ago, I realized that I really got a poor [if not impaired] eyesight.
I often wear my eyeglasses with a recent Up-"grade" , where upgrade doesn't really translate to something "better" .
As I was seated while listening to the reviewer, I suddenly decided to remove my eyeglasses, thinking that I'll just be reading the handouts. Surprisingly, I can't even read what was written on my handouts placed on my desk.
I thought that it is really unfortunate that I had to deal with this ailment. It was just this night that I realized that having a poor vision isn't that bad at all.
As my vision wandered one night along EDSA while looking at the cars and the lights along MRT, I think it was a great sight.
I'm not really a fan of "lights" but then they seem to have an effect to people. Aside from preventing depression of course.
I'm not sure if it is my near-sightedness or my astigmatism that caused my vision to be a little spread out. I found that a single lighted bulb on a normal view [while wearing eyeglasses] is just a bulb lighted. Whereas, when I looked at it in my own view [without wearing my eyeglasses], it is like a wreath with a size 10 times larger than the bulb. The wreath is composed of countless little lights arranged well like those in a kaleidoscope.
As for the things attached to the light, like the cars or the light post, I could slightly see them clearly with the "smudge" effect. HAHA
Got hit on my Silly [but true] Generalization
I think I did quite well.
I decided to do things by using my intuition and feelings.
It is just nice to know that my decisions are always right. Even if I couldn't justify it right away.
I just love how guys help me in prooving my hypotheses. (Mathematical term)
I opened a few sites that I kept a few years ago... Surprisingly, I found that I once called an entity "baby" - It really made me laugh that I was once so in love with a Ragnarok character... Silly me. Then I got blinded by silly flowery words. Oh yeah, I'm still a girl after all.
Then I met a lot of guys, I dealt with various things, etc. I even learned to say things what a guy couldn't say! (You can call me a mind-reader, or mind- speaker? LOL) It was proven to be really correct. I was even asked by a friend if I was a fortune teller. (*coughs* to my suited job title)
Just before I left facebook apps just to focus to my studies (Oh studies). I occasionally view random 'God' messages and Paulo Coelho's quotations. Then this is what I got:
Paulo Coelho's Quotes of the Day:
"The wise are wise only because they love. The fool are fools only because they think they can understand love."
Then we are all wise and fools at the same time. :)
I'm not sure if this quote is just making fun of me, after what I did yesterday. Yeah yesterday, go love.. I did well. I just wanted to save myself from future 'What IFs' syndrome.
And then this next app just hit me:
On this day, God wants you to know
"...that a successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you reached the end, stop generalizing."
Okay, I definitely hate this message. Generalizing often saves us.
I did said that guys helped me in prooving my hypotheses. So then, is this quote telling me that I should apologize? I think loving in a new level is different for every circumstance. Oh yes Mr. Coelho, I'm such a fool to find another reason. *laughs*